Avalynn died June 13, 2015. Though it has been just over a year, my heart is still heavy. I often feel dismissed by friends and family who feel I should be over it by now. They grew impatient a long time ago. So I'm not sure how to deal with the loneliness that is only meant for her to fill. Whether good or difficult memories of her suffering, I cry because I get jealous of myself holding her in that moment. I want so badly to look her in her eyes and see her life, her soul, her joy, trust,…