Well its not! It seems like its getting harder. Each day that goes by that I can't call my grandma or go see her, hurts me even more. I feel like im so far down and I don't have the energy to get up. I try to put on a happy face for everyone. But I don't think I can do that anymore. It hurts too much to fake a smile. I just want to go away. But I can't because im.a mom and a wife and I have to take care of them.

They say talking helps. It doesn't. I want to talk to her! But I can't. I… Continue