Just stopped in to say hello , mainly because as much as this is the place i wanted to be when i first found it and still want to be in the future i guess right now the grieve the despair im experiance in the last month especially having to have July 12 the day amber would have been 19 and then three days later six months of her being gone was ,is , has been to much for me i log in and read one two sentences i so badly want to help say im sorry for your loss , i know how you feel something i…

I sat here making cards making posters listening to her music all in between horrible , sobbing , and feeling like i cant make it thru this , i had planned this huge memorial at the Hilton hotel then canceled it , then at last minute decided to do a candlelight birthday memorial at sunset beach her favorite place TODAY IS AS BAD AS THE DAY I WAS TOLD MY DAUGHTER WAS DEAD GONE FOREVER ? I have not had a single moments relive of this pain , the loss , the anger , the despair the disbelieve how…

I Cry and grieve that you are Gone yet smile that you once lived....I close my eyes and beg and scream and pray that you come back...I open my eyes and look around and see all that you have left in memory's.....My heart is broken at the thought i will never see you, your smile , or hear your giggles so a life ....My heart is filled with love when i think all we did share. and the beautiful moments and memories you have left with me ....I turn my back on…