I feel so lost since i lost my son. I think of him every minute of every day. my grief is so strong. it is hard to be at home or work. I miss him so very much he was my first born, the first true love of my life. I can not even begin to fathom life without him in it. To watch him grow older, to be there for his daughter and wife to see them grow old together, and watch his daughter grow up. He would have been 28 years old on the 13th. We went and had dinner at one of his favorite restaurants…