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Comment by Monica Pace on June 14, 2010 at 7:16pm

oops! I accidently posted before finishing!! But hey, at least it posted - that's a nice change! So here's the second part:
I was saying I believe there is a plan beyond our scope and we just have to wait. Life on earth is short, and the more I read, the more I truly believe there is an afterlife and Damon and Rob are there now, VERY HAPPY, and we will see them again. There are too many signs pointing to that truth. And at the very least, it gives me comfort to believe it. I'm not what you'd call super-religious. Raised Catholic but I have a few issues with their rules and regulations! I do believe strongly in God, however, and am finding that my faith is stronger now than ever. AND i no longer fear death, that's for sure.
Well, I've rambled on long enough. I hope you're having an okay day. I know that hole in your heart is ever present, but i hope you're getting to laugh now and then. All my best, Monica xo

Comment by Monica Pace on June 14, 2010 at 7:09pm

Hi Dan,
I figured that Tuesday would be very hard for you. Glad your family was there for you. And yes, I do feel anger. I keep trying to analyze my "path" of grieving, and have come to the conclusion that I am completely all over the map!! One day I might feel pretty good, then POW! I start crying out of the blue! Sometimes I feel angry when I see someone smoking a cigarette, for example, and the thought will cross my mind "why would that person live and someone like Damon, who took excellent care of himself, be the one to die?" But I know that's silly - there is no rhyme or reason to this. The fact is that both Rob and Damon were way too young to die and it's nobody's fault, there's nobody to be angry at! That is super frustrating - makes me want to kick and punch something!! I have to believe that everything happens for a reason. We may not understand the reason or like it, but I believ

Comment by rodan99 on June 14, 2010 at 6:59pm

Hi Monica,
Good to hear from you, my family left this past Tuesday and Rob's party at the cemetary was really nice. I guess I thought that if i had a gathering there for him it wouldn't be do bad on Tuesday the 8th his actual Birthday but hit it me like a ton of bricks. Couldn't go to work, and family stayed just to help me get through the day. It was heartbreaking and I was also angry about the whole situation. Do you ever feel that way? I just can't seem to find any meaning as to why this happend and it was really a struggle on his birthday. How are you doing this week? I hope things are a little easier for you and I'm thinking about you and wishing you a little peace today.

best,
Dan

Comment by Monica Pace on June 13, 2010 at 10:12am

Hi Dan,
Please know that I am thinking of you and hope you're doing okay. My computer with this website is a hit and miss deal, mostly miss. I found that I can comment on photos, though! You guys are a really nice looking couple and you both look SO happy. It's wonderful that you had that love in your life. Are your parents still there? Take care and I send a big hug. xo Monica