Lost my son 4 weeks ago...still can't believe he is gone...at times still wonder, how did this happen?...I have a faith in my Lord Jesus and I know that my God is there for me and my loved ones, and I also know that my son Robbie (41 years old)  is with my God in Heaven and is fine, but it is hard down here though and the grief that comes over you, and I so wished that I could be with him at this moment.

 I don't understand why things happened as they did in the end but I do know who has the answer and one day so will I.  He was a gentle old soul.  He left behind a daughter (17) and 2 sons that are (4 & 6).  So much suffering in their young  lives and his wife's life  now.  My grandaughter is in the hospital because she wanted to harm herself and she is still there getting the help she needs and I am thankful that she is receiving it but there is so much that is having to be dealt with in this kind of loss. 

He died in his sleep.  He was an amazing son who came home every night to his family.  He was a good father but after 40 years of living  he took this last year and started taking drugs (cocaine and ozycon). It still baffles my mind and it  is so heartbreaking.  We are suffering deeply from how his life ended.  After all these years of him being here for all of us and living a healthy life; loving his family deeply; but then this..  I know from what I heard about in his last 2 weeks that God was calling him  and he turned to God and now God has taken him home and I know he has peace and because of this, I have been given peace too of knowing where he is....but try to understand what happened to my son....It is heartbreaking loss....