Dear Friends,

I have not posted in a very long time but it wasnt because I didnt need to be here. I think I was trying to convince myself that I just had to deal with things and go on. As an update my husband of 42 years died suddenly the morning of Aug 3, 2011. I think for most of the first year I was in shock and now everything is more than real. So many things have happened in the last year that some people dont live through in a lifetime. The latest thng that happened I think has thrown me back into depression. At the end of October during Super Storm Sandy I lost power and water for a week-I live in a rural area of Pennsylvania and we do lose power with storms. I had never been alone through one of the outages my husband was always with me. I did have our dog but during this period the dog stopped eating and rapidly went down hill. By the time I regained power and water I knew he had to be put down. I feel like every piece of the life I had is now gone and I just dont know how to go on. With the holidays coming I feel like I just cant face it. Just wonder if any of you are having these feelngs as time goes on. Love to all of you

Barbara