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Comment by Ammy on October 29, 2011 at 9:36am

Sorry I have been MIA.  I just haven't been able to get on here to comment.  Seems like I want to post something positive and I can't.  I'm reading the posts and my heart is with you all.  I know how each of you feel.  We all feel the same.  This morning I actually begged God to bring him back.  He is God, He can do anything.  I knew it would never happen, but I had to ask.  Feel like I'm still not mentally stable and wonder if I ever will be again.  We are having snow this morning.  Something that hardly ever happens here in October.  Just one more thing to make me think of what Charles would be saying and doing.  He loved the winter time.  I think that's why he loved Alaska so much.  The cooler weather and the beautiful scenery.  He would have lived in the woods if he could have and even told us that if he died just to put his body in the woods with nature.  I use to tell him that was not legal, but I do have his ashes and sometimes I think that maybe I should set him free, but I can't let him go (my selfishness).  Maybe when I'm gone someone else will do it.  Looks like this turned into more than I had planned.  Only meant to check in and let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers.  <3

Comment by Karen R. on October 28, 2011 at 9:10pm

Hey Ann, so sorry about your "extra" hard days soo to come. We all have those. My son passed away Oct 16th, 2 yrs now. It's unbelievable, unconcievable, so unacceptable.....to say the least. Some people will never "get it" .

Comment by Ann Edmondson on October 28, 2011 at 11:15am

Good day to everyone! I pray that you are all doing OK (at least as well as can be expected). This time of year is hard for me. November 20, Claude would have turned 25. Plus there is Veteran's Day to deal with. Then the anniversary of him leaving this world on December 16 and Christmas. I have a hard time this time of year and am so glad I can voice that here. My family has no clue what I am going through! They mean well with their words but......

Thanks for listening guys. I have to go for now before I really loose it.

Comment by Karen R. on October 27, 2011 at 3:00pm

Hello all! I hope that everyone has been able to get through this day thus far and please know that everyone on this site, including all parents who lost their children and may not have any support, my heart is with you guys and you are always in my thoughts. Life is so fragile and it's very easy to take for granted that our children will ALWAYS be safe and that they will bury us.  In a "perfect" world, no one would ever come to know this pain.

Comment by Stephanie on October 27, 2011 at 12:59pm

SUSAN i couldnt believe your post - i  ALSO got a puppy, he's ALSO a cross chiwawa-something, and guess what?  his name is ALSO BUDDY !!!!  xxxx

Comment by Stephanie on October 27, 2011 at 12:57pm

karen also, it helps me to even read your EMOTIONS in your reply to me.  and no, those people did not bury a child.  and you are right, i dont need anyones approval or permission for my feelings.  they are MINE, i own them.  and whether they like it or not, jessy IS my child!!!!!!

Comment by Stephanie on October 27, 2011 at 12:55pm

adrianne, thank you so much for your sharing that with me. your pastor sounds like a good man, a sincere man.  it helps tremendously to know that within the world of parents who have lost a child, i am "NORMAL"! thank you

 

Comment by Karen R. on October 26, 2011 at 7:39pm

Dear Janice, that is some BS!......let her go?!!!!! Your holding on?!!!!!......are they kidding me? That's your child, that is so insensitive, that person must not have had to bury their child. She is your daughter and she always will be, period. You do NOT need anyone's approval or permission for your thoughts or feelings.

Many hugs to you

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on October 26, 2011 at 6:26pm

Janice, I met today with the pastor of the new church I am attending.  I expected a lot of conversation about God.  Instead, my pastor shared his grief with me.  He lost his son (murder) a few years ago.  He had everything to say that is said here.  No one understands unless they walk in our shoes.  He told me how difficult it is for him to hear the same nonsense we all hear.  He said they love us, want to help us.  They have no idea how wrong they are.  We need pat answers.  I am not in pain because my son is gone.  I am in pain because he is not here.  It is the now that we live in.  It was helpful to hear a pastor speak the same language we do.  This is something we share and there aren't words that would explain how we feel to someone else.  Pastor has a large church and and he is a very powerful speaker.  He doesn't preach.  He educates and when he is finished no one wants to leave.  He couldn't speak for months and two years later his pain is still as fresh as the day it happened.  We aren't alone.  I am holding on to my son.  I won't let him go.  He will forever be in my heart.  How cruel to ask that of you.  But they just don't understand and can't feel the extent of our pain.

Comment by Stephanie on October 26, 2011 at 3:46pm

you know what people say to me all too often, if i so much as "mention" that i am having a hard time and missing Jess SOOOO bad?  they tell me i'm HOLDING ONTO HER, and i need to LET HER GO!  they say, "do you think Jessy wants to see you crying and in pain?"  "she wants to see that you are happy." "let her rest jan, let her be happy?"  i want to just SCREAM.  i guess i understand the way theyre thinking,  but like, whats this? a GUILT TRIP cos ive lost the love of my life?  is it true? is it not true?  HELP!  any suggestions?

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