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Comment by Lorraine on January 3, 2012 at 8:17pm

Dick, sorry this has been a difficult day for  you.  The what if's are so difficult.  So much more we wished for our children to experience in life... it just sucks.  Hang in there my friend, best as you can

Comment by Dick on January 3, 2012 at 8:05pm

Today was a bad day. I have been nauseated all day thinking about my son. He could have done so much more in his life; but it was cut short. I keep thinking about what if and what I could have done differently.

We were going to start a business together; but he had not finished his post graduate. I just keep thinking about what if. It is weighing heavily on me now; almost like a stone on my chest. It is hard to breathe.

We have a minister at my company and he came by to pray with me. I think this is what got me down, not his fault, mine. The stone company called with the bench and when to deliver it. Just a lot of moving parts.

Just down today.

Comment by Karen R. on January 2, 2012 at 12:30am

Greetings Debbie, so sorry to hear of your pain that I know all too well. My 21 yr old son and I were robbed of his life. I am still very angry, I recently reached the 2 yr mark and nothing is "better", I still struggle with the idea that it will one day be "better"..... not possible! I would choose to have my son back and my once happy life back over things getting "BETTER" with time! This whole thing sucks. The time is just getting longer and reinforces that my son is not here. Hopefully, it will begin to become "EASIER". Sending you and everyone many hugs.

Comment by anne on January 2, 2012 at 12:00am

today my grandson who is 4, took me by the hand and walked me to the hallway where pictures of my 4 children hang. He pointed to my youngest daughter and said" that's my mommy". and then he pointed at my youngest son and said "that's my uncle Del and he's in heaven" then he pointed to my oldest daughter and said "that's my auntie AJ" and them he pointed to my oldest son and ran to the closet grabbed a black stetson hat that belonged to my oldest son, put it on his head and said "that's my uncle Benk and this is his hat, and he's in heaven with uncle Del." It has taken me a very long time to look at those pictures. when this little 4 year old boy said such sweet things about what he saw on the wall I cried but not tears of sadness tears of joy. I finally understood that death does not stop the love and does not cause you to forget how important and how much love is still there for those who have died. I held my little grandson who is still wearing the hat and I held him for the longest time. I have great hope that I will survive and I wll keep on living and loving in honor of both my sons. In this New Year I resove to do the best I can to make the best of the rest of my life here on earth and to be as happy as life will allow. I love my boys and I know they loved me, and I want that love to carry on for as long as I live. Happy New Year to all. I wish everyone grieving peace and love and tranquility for your soul.

 

Comment by Dick on January 1, 2012 at 12:38am

New years is not as hard as I thought. I did not go anywhere just stayed at home. I had friends and family trying to get me out; but I don't feel much like partying. I guess I am blessed to have people thinking of me. Well, I hope we all have a better year in 2012. Via con Dios.

Comment by anna l. on January 1, 2012 at 12:35am

If I were still at home in Ontario it would be 2012 already.  Here in BC I have an hour and half left to think.  No Karl calling me at 12:01 doing his best to yell "Happy New Years Moms and Dad".  He wasnt here last newyears either but I had the strong arms of his dad to hold me and whisper in my ear, "Its ok, He is in a better place with no pain".  I could make it with my husband to share.  Now they are together in the better place with no pain and I am still here.  Breathing another breath for another second, another minute, another hour, another day.  Now another year.  No matter how many of my other 3 children, their spouses, my grandchildren surround me the emptiness of my arms is overwhelming.  2012, just another date without the piece of my heart taken when Karl and then Tom died.  Damned be the "BETTER PLACE:"!!!!!!!

 

Comment by Ann Edmondson on December 31, 2011 at 11:36pm

While 2012 will be "New" to those who have not lost a child we here understand it means just another year they are not with us. To all parents whom this is your first year without your child I pray for you that you will come to understand that we are the ones missing out. Our children have gone ahead of us to something we can never understand this side of eternity. I long for the day when I will lay my head down for that final peaceful sleep. Yet I know it will not be for a long time yet as my work is not yet done here on earth. I have 11 wonderful grandchildren and 2 special great-grandchildren (my oldest step child is in her late 30's and my youngest was just 20 when he was killed 5 years ago.) So I stick around for them to see them grow up and answer questions about their uncle when they come around. (Sorry got to rambling) Back to the issue. I pray that everyone will find a blessed year in 2012 - peace in their hearts, minds, and souls.

Comment by Ammy on December 31, 2011 at 5:56pm

Just got off the phone with my youngest daughter.  I've been calling her since 3 this afternoon.  I figured she was sleeping as I saw that she was on her Facebook after 3 this morning.  Asked her if she had a bad night and she broke down.  Said she couldn't stop thinking that Charles missed all of this year.  Another first.  I hadn't even thought of that.  His first whole year not here.  Does it ever end?  I don't want to think of those things, but I know they can't always be avoided.  I try hard to push things out of my mind anymore.  Thinking only makes the pain worse and now I feel the anxiety coming on. 

I'd like to hope everyone is managing, and I know this is wishful thinking, but.....

I hope this New Year will bring you all New Hope, and
New Beginnings...

Topped off with PEACE in your heart, LOVE in your life,  and GOOD HEALTH both mentally and physically.

Blessings and love to all.     ❤¸.•*""*•.¸❤

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on December 31, 2011 at 5:39pm

Thinking of all of us. Hurting for all of us. Mandy, I love the tribute for Julie. I'm not strong enough to post pictures of my son yet. It still hurts so deeply. Listened to his voice mail and I fell apart. What was never so important is now the utmost of importance. Can't get rid of anything.

Comment by Stephanie on December 31, 2011 at 3:34pm

lots of love to all my most valuable friends. at this new year we must know we are not "leaving our beloved children behind"... on the contrary, they are way further than we are on the journey of life, THEY have moved on! and one day, please G-d we will be with them again. in the meantime we deal with our pain by walking this journey together the way we do, and knowing they are with us every step of the way. a blessed 2012 to all angel moms and dads! and thank you for being there

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