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Comment by Karen R. on February 26, 2012 at 9:03pm

dear Angela, I really need to believe that my son is ok and happy. I still struggle with that concept, I just have such an uneasy feeling that he is afraid and angry that he was robbed of his young life. Perhaps those are just my feelings and not his.  I yearn for him to contact me and reassure me that he is fine and has only experienced peace. I guess my struggle will never end, for I will NEVER be able to accept my son being gone. I just want  him back, here with me.

Comment by Angela Johnson on February 26, 2012 at 7:12am

Dear Lisa,

I read your post and would like to share with you that I have had that same revelation in the past week. I spoke with my counselor about it. It is so true that we feel like our identity has been stolen from us. I cared for my disabled daughter for 39 1/2 years since my age of 17. I don,t know any other way to go about my life than as her mother and caregiver as everything I did and every thought I had for all those years centered around how it would affect her. We just have to take it day to day and muddle through forming our new selves. I miss her and am lost but I know that she would want me to find the new me and new path that God has planned for me. I know that she is not suffering now and is running and laughing in heaven. She told me that she was not afraid and knew that her broken body would be whole again. I find peace in that. My daughter suffered from spina bifida, and she never walked or ran a day of her life and praise GOD she can do that now! She was on a home ventilator the last 2 months of her precious life and I was heartbroken but yet joyful when she passed as I knew she would no longer suffer. Her death was peaceful and she had a smile on her face! I cry for her and I know she would not want that. I read all posts and we all are suffering but our loved ones are with GOD and they are joyful. Let us take peace in this.   Angie

Comment by Dick on February 25, 2012 at 10:48pm

Another song for the sad:

http://youtu.be/R0xoMhCT-7A

Comment by Dick on February 25, 2012 at 10:31pm

A song for everyone feeling bad.

http://youtu.be/w_DKWlrA24k

Comment by Karen R. on February 25, 2012 at 9:59pm

Wow Lorraine, you are right, what are the chances of that?!! That's pretty incredible. I know what you mean about running out of energy to deal with this madness.

Many hugs to you and everyone

Comment by Frances Cope on February 25, 2012 at 9:27pm

Face it, we are not gonna get any better than we are now.

 

Comment by Lorraine on February 25, 2012 at 7:03pm

I'm really sad today, I guess I am sad everyday, but sometimes it makes me feel really really heavy inside.  Yesterday I told Silas to send me a message, and something good came of that anyway.  Today I was in the ymca signing up to work out, and there was a woman in line who had these little twins.  I heard her call them Silas and Phoebe, the names of my Sy guy and his big sister Phoebe.  What are the chances with those names?  that made me feel a little better, but it didn't last.  I want my beautiful boy back here, damn it.  I just don't even have the energy to stay on the earth some days, although I know that I don't really have a choice when it comes to that.  UGH.

Comment by Dick on February 25, 2012 at 1:56pm

Am I going nuts? I just saw another swoosh out of the side of my eye. I did not get a clear look at it; but nothing should have been there. I am starting to psych my self out.

Comment by Dick on February 24, 2012 at 11:01pm

I think my daily conversations with Danny and my Father helps me. I have my time to talk with both of them; unfortunately they do not answer back. I was at the church garden late yesterday night talking and praying on the Danny's bench, I was spooked by a swoosh near by. I am not suggesting anything but I was startled by movement; but nothing was there.

Comment by Dick on February 24, 2012 at 10:54pm

Adrianne, I plan to go to Verizon this weekend to find out how to preserve messages. I will get back to you on this.

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