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Comment by anne on June 3, 2014 at 11:36am

I believe our children are right here in our hearts! Death cannot separate our hearts from them. In every happy memory, every beautiful song, every special poem, and every wonderful feeling, they are here. It's so easy to remember the bad, sad, and painful, but it's the good, and happy that bring us closer to them. From the smallest joys come the greatest gifts. Yes its hard to come to that place. Yes it is the most painful, and the most difficult feat to accomplish, but when the pain begins to settle, and it will, all of the little things that bring joy, and love will come to all of us.

Yesterday I was looking out my window, and saw two cottontail rabbits playing in the church yard. I watched them for a long time chasing each other, back, and forth. Happily taunting each other to run, and play! To me it felt like I was once again watching my sons carrying on playfully looking after one another. I felt my heart swell with joy, and rapture. A while ago it would've made me cry, hurt, and yearn for them to be physically here with me. Now I realize that as long as I keep my heart open, every where I look they're love, and spirit really is right here in my soul! Feeling bad is easy, and we all have every reason to, but feeing good is hard work, but it is also much more rewarding! Peace, love, and happy bunnies to all!

Comment by Vasanthi S on June 3, 2014 at 9:43am

I keep talking too. I ask him, " where the hell are you and how am i supposed to even try and like it here without you to share my life. I also tell him , c'mon its been too longggg

Comment by kim on June 3, 2014 at 8:41am

I miss his beautiful brown eyes, his smile and so much his voice. I miss smileing to, but theres nothing to smile about anymore. 7 months on the 5 of this week, it feels like yesterday, the pain is still so unbearable, tears still flow, god how I miss him, I still pray everynight to go with him, I need my shawn so bad. so very very lonely .

Comment by Teresa D. on June 3, 2014 at 5:33am

I talk to Michael everyday and ask him everyday "Where are you?" As if he is going to pop up and say, "Here I am"

Comment by Bern on June 3, 2014 at 12:04am

Adrianne,

I told my son to come on back home now, the joke is over..Talking to myself again...

Comment by Adrianne Edgerly on June 3, 2014 at 12:01am

Wishing we could all just wake up from this nightmare.

Comment by anne on June 2, 2014 at 5:22pm

I've been thinking a lot about my boys today. Well every day actually, but today it occurred to me. If the tables were turned, and I was the one who died, what would I want them to do. The answer is, I'd want them to be happy, and enjoy every moment in my memory. So today I went to see my therapist. I brought my ipod dock, and ipod. I played the Happy song for her, and had her dance with me! She asked me how did I know she needed some laughter today? So I told her, Well I'm either psychic or psycho! Anyway each day I am capable of feeling happy, I will in loving memory of my sons. I know it won't be every day, but when possible I hope I can dance! I feel them with me much more when I'm happy, and that feels so good! May you all find a reason today to dance! Peace, and Love to you!

Comment by Lynn Williams on June 2, 2014 at 3:35pm

Today as I was driving home from a gardening job a song came on the radio by a male singer whose last name is Fulbright. It was a beautiful song on the show Fresh air on NPR. Kyra loved finding new music for all of us and my mind went immediately to her. I couldn't stop crying all the way home but I felt like she was listening to it with me.  The shells are beautiful Teresa. Dolly, I think Brandon was coming for a visit on his Dad's birthday. Much love to all on this site. Kim it is wonderful that a firefly came to you while watching the stars.

Comment by Connie K on June 2, 2014 at 2:10pm

Dolly, Teresa - These are all definitely signs from our children. When we keep our hearts open to beauty in the world, that's how they can reach us. I love the rocks. I have also found that incredible blue abalone that I know Daniel sent. The fireflies and the birds and the lights for sure. I got chills when you said that both times it was your birthdays. That's awesome.  I miss my baby so much. But I also have had messages from him lately and I'll take any and all signs and communication as we continue to know them in their "new form" and know that they are safe and at peace with Spirit. And there are those new shiny pennies my mom and sister and I keep finding in places we knew they weren't there a second ago

But it's also true like you said Teresa that altho it brings us some comfort, it still doesn't change the impact of the grief. It just hurts so bad to live without them. Trusting in my faith is all that keeps me going.

Comment by kim on June 2, 2014 at 1:30pm

thank you dolly, I know the firefly was from my shawn, and I know he will always be close to me. I love him so much, hes my life and I know I am his,   thank you again    kim

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