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Comment by BLUEBELL on May 24, 2017 at 5:36am

To make matters worse, the botox I got the other day has taken effect and I feel like I can not cry properly. I thought it would help me feel better if I looked better. But it is not helping at all.

Bluebell

Comment by BLUEBELL on May 24, 2017 at 5:32am

Hi Theresa. I guess I was typing around the same time you were

It was 3 months May 14th on Mother's Day. I am a grown woman. I should not need my mother anymore. But right now I do and she is not here.

I am sorry you felt so bad earlier. 

Bluebell

Comment by BLUEBELL on May 24, 2017 at 5:23am

I feel so alone, scared and lost right now that I can hardly stand it. I hate that she is gone. I know that hate is a strong word, but right now it is the only one that describes how I feel. 3 am in the morning is a bad time to feel like I do. I am by myself with nobody to talk to and nothing to distract me. I tried calling a friend earlier but he did not answer the phone. I just want so desperately to be comforted and know that somebody cares. 

Bluebell

Comment by Theresa on May 24, 2017 at 5:19am

Bluebell, how long is it now?

Take your time, I went in my garage last night and looked over in a box that i have some of my moms stuff and there was her cooking pot that she used to use to make us stew on Sundays, I broke down in tears horribly.

I tell people this has changed my life significantly.

God Bless you Bluebell.

Comment by BLUEBELL on May 23, 2017 at 9:30pm

Bad evening. I am feeling sad and alone. I am going to try and distract myself with watching TV.

Bluebell

Comment by BLUEBELL on May 23, 2017 at 8:45am

Theresa,

"You have to live your life, I lived mine". Your Mom sounds like a very wise woman. I feel like I am getting to know her through your words.

Bluebell

Comment by Theresa on May 23, 2017 at 5:17am

Bluebell, next month will be 1 1/2 years...saying years seems not right.

Can I tell you that I believe she is seeing more beautiful things now than she ever did...

I guess my life is now different and will be until it is my time to leave the earth, my mom used to tell me when we visited the cemetary as we were leaving, "you have to live your life, I lived mine", those words keep going through my mind and I say, its hard mom, really hard.

Comment by BLUEBELL on May 22, 2017 at 9:03pm

I will always miss my Mom. Today I saw a Monarch butterfly and ask her if she was seeing it too. I hope that this has not been taken away from her. She enjoyed beautiful things such as this.

Theresa-I still go over the last moments of her life in my mind. I think I will until I am done with processing it. 

Bluebell

Comment by Theresa on May 22, 2017 at 6:59pm

I am just sitting here tonight wondering will my life ever change?

Will I always miss my mom, everyday and everynight?

Will I ever stop thinking about her laying there in the hospital when I just talked to her a half hour before?

I feel blank......I just dont' know..

Comment by BLUEBELL on May 15, 2017 at 11:02am

Theresa

I think somehow your Mom influenced those pennies to be on her grave for you to find.

My Mom's birthday is also coming up in June. She would have been 99.

Bluebell

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