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Comment by Theresa on July 24, 2017 at 7:20pm

So sorry for your loss Panda

Comment by Panda on July 24, 2017 at 6:14pm

I just wish I could have my mom back. It hurts so much :'( she was the only person who didn't abuse or lie to me. The only one who wanted me who loved me. The only one who I knew who I was from. I got taken from her when I wasn't even two years old. I didn't get a chance to know her until I was 18 but I didn't wanna meet her cuz I was scared. I've gotten told lies all my life about her from people who were supposed to be my family. I regret it now :'( the last chance I had to meet her was 2 months ago after I turned 20 and I knew the real part of my "family" sadly she was terminal in hospice when I finally got a chance to meet her and she died two weeks later :'( I have so much regrets now it hurts so much. I don't know what to do anymore :'(

Comment by BLUEBELL on July 24, 2017 at 6:09pm

Panda

I am so sorry for your loss and sadness

Bluebell

Comment by Panda on July 24, 2017 at 1:15pm

Really missing my mom right now :/ she was the only one in my fd up family. And what hurts even more was I only really knew her for two weeks before she died cuz I got taken from her when I wasnt even two years old and when I turned 18 and had the chance to see her i was too scared because of the lies my family told me throughout my life. So when I first got a chance to know her about two months ago which was 18 years after I got taken from her she was terminal in hospice :/

Comment by Theresa on July 24, 2017 at 5:47am

Its been one year and seven months it has not changed, but it does get "softer", you'll know what I mean.

Every night I tell her I love her and I would love to hear her voice one more time.

 

Comment by BLUEBELL on July 23, 2017 at 9:43pm

And same here. I have bad days and tolerable days. I am having a real hard time without my Mom right now. Life just does not make sense anymore. But I keep going on through the motions of  living, hoping this deep sense of loss will ease up. 

Comment by Joy on July 23, 2017 at 3:49pm

Same here. As you said some days are tolerable while others are still bad. I try to keep myself distracted, but memories of my mom invade my thoughts throughout the day.

Comment by Theresa on July 23, 2017 at 3:35pm

Just wanted to see how everyone is doing, I have bad days and tolerable days.

Its still very difficult, I miss her so much.

Comment by Joy on July 18, 2017 at 3:42pm

I have been feeling very angry the last couple days over the death of my mom. She's been gone two months. I've felt every emotion: sadness, guilt, despair, some relief since she's free from her health issues and I'm free from caregiving. I keep wondering why did I have to lose my mother. I still needed her even though she couldn't do anything. I did everything for her in the end.  I just need her to be. I need her presence. I miss her face and her voice. I know we all lose our mothers at some point, but it still doesn't seem fair at all.

I'm just venting but this is a safe place to vent especially since everyone in this forum is grieving over someone special in their lives.

Comment by BLUEBELL on July 10, 2017 at 4:38pm

Thank you all for your support. 

Bluebell

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