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Comment by BLUEBELL on November 7, 2017 at 9:40am

Thank you Brett. And you all are in my prayers.

Bluebell

Comment by BLUEBELL on November 7, 2017 at 9:38am

Thank you Theresa.

Bluebell

Comment by Brett Bowman on November 7, 2017 at 9:38am

You are in my prayers as well, my friend.

Comment by Theresa on November 7, 2017 at 8:37am

Bluebell, you are in my prayers this morning, it is very difficult, I know also, but don't hold back tears, feel what you are feeling.

The more I tried not to cry the worse I would feel.

God Bless you always

Comment by BLUEBELL on November 7, 2017 at 8:14am

 I am trying to be positive and recover from the loss of my Mom, but despite my intentions, the last 2 weeks have become increasingly hard for me. The morning anxiety and tears are back. I also feel that the self confidence I have been actively seeking to build the past 30 years is slipping away. I have been having many doubts about myself on a daily basis and it is hard for me right now. I am asking for your prayers to help me get through this particularly hard patch.

Bluebell

Comment by BLUEBELL on November 6, 2017 at 2:41am

I feel your pain Brett and I wish somehow I could take it away. But I know that is impossible. All I can do is listen, support and tell you like you have told so many of us, "You are not alone." All of us here have lost something so very precious to us that it seems cruel that we should have to go on living with so much heaviness in our hearts. But I believe there is more for us to do on this earth. It may be something as small as making someone smile who has had a bad day or as big as rescuing a helpless baby from a burning house. I guess what I am saying is that God has a plan for us that we need to fulfill. And I also believe God wants us to be at peace and truly know that he loves us and will never leave us.

That being said, I bet our Mom's, if they had a choice, would be at our sides forever. I suspect they still are. But like many great and wonderful things, we can not see them. We just need to keep the faith that they are still here with us and love us.

Bluebell

Comment by Brett Bowman on November 5, 2017 at 10:23pm

I think we all have had a tough day. I had a realization today that broke my heart. There was a time, not long ago, when I had my hands full with mom and two dogs. Now my mom and little Boo Bear are gone. I promised my mom that I would take care of her little dogs. When she passed I knew I still had a job to do. I had two little munchkins who needed me. I was holding little Krissy a while ago and it hit me very hard. When she dies I will have nothing left. 

People use to tell me that I had a lot on my plate, but I never minded. I was given so much love in return. Those days are slipping away. Mom and Boo are gone and don't need me anymore. Taking care of Krissy is all that I have left.

Comment by BLUEBELL on November 5, 2017 at 8:27pm

I could use a helping hand from God right now. It has been a bad day. Not as bad as some, but still a reminder of how much I miss my Mom. I wish I could skip all the days from now to January 2018. Christmas will be especially painful. I too have never spent a Christmas without my Mom and I being together. This one coming up will be the first. );

Bluebell

Comment by Theresa on November 5, 2017 at 5:35pm

Brett a priest told me after my mom died, God is right beside you, and I truly believe that my faith is what has helped me. 

I keep going over that day in my head which was almost two years ago, it seems so far away.

I just keep praying for God to help me and I know he has and I am sure he is helping everyone on here.

 

Comment by Luisa Salter on November 5, 2017 at 3:40pm

Brett sometimes I don't feel strong either. Like today.

Today is a day where I have to remind myself that God still has me here for a reason, and that I have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, if only to serve Him, and serve others for Him. I have to turn my grief over to Him and tell Him that it's too much for me, I need His help to heal. 

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