my mother in law called me yesterday. she was in so much sadness and crying due to missing my husband, her son, so very much. I just dont know what words to say, when I am too, going through hell and inmense pain without my husband. I realize we both have different relationships with Danny. He was my partner, and he was her son. But at the end, we both share similar feelings, we both miss him dearly and are hurt because he was taken away from us so soon. My mother in law, said that from all of her 4 children, Danny, was the only one she can call to vent, and that he always listened and had the right words to make her day feel a lot better. He was the best son to her. And now he is no longer here. She decided to call me yesterday, since she felt the urge to just call Danny, she knew that i can also be a listener to her.  I somehow made it through the call and simply said to her that she can always find a daughter in me and listener as Danny was to her. How do you make a mother's pain better due to the loss of a son???? I just believe there are no words!!

it is just so much trauma. how our family was just all torned up and broken due to Danny's killing. It is just so unfair that we no longer have the good listener, the support, the love, affection from Danny here with us. The father to my son. How do i wrap myself around the idea of now raising my son on my own?? how? why?