Our little boy Nicholas, sleeping beside mommy

Was just waking up to play

You couldn't wake your mommy up you said

On that very dreadful day

You were with her alone at home

A debt no child should have to pay

I wish that I could have been there

before they carried your mommy away

Every morning now when he gets up

he has the same words to say

"Dad, I know you miss mom, I miss her too,

but it will be okay!"

This…

Thought I would share with you another poem I wrote,

The lifeline of love

We were knitted together as one

it was you that was my lifeline

until death came and took you away

and snapped right through our strong twine

Now I am falling so very fast

no lifeline with which to save me

I never thought the line would…

I had My Daddy Terry, for 25 years and for some reason I feel it was not long enough. I have so much anger, hurt, guilt, and pain built up. I know he went to heaven but it is still so ha

All You Need Is Love

The Beatles

Lennon/McCartney

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love.

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.

Nothing you can sing that can't be sung. 

Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play

the game It's easy. 

There's nothing you can make that can't be made.

 No one you can save that can't be saved. 

Nothing you can do but you can learn…

I had a dream last night of my wife Jami.  She was lying beside me and she was all in white.

She said something about she was able to spend a little time with me.  Her face was very pure and vivid, and she was dressed in white (or just glowed in white).  

Some of her words she spoke of were that she will always love Nicki and me and everything will be alright.

Holding her,kissing her and smelling her perfume were also obvious during and after the dream.

I remember…

I have been a christian for 18 years and have loved the lord with all my heart and been an active member of my church for that time. I have been through many trials and have always found strengh in God and my church family. At the moment though I am really struggling, I havn't been to church since January and have not been able to worship, I know God is with me and don't want to abandon him or my faith but there seems to be a barrier. I wondered if anyone on here has found this difficult. It…

I was overcome today with anger about my wife's passing.

A lot of it has to do with her Doctors.  I know it is easy to blame the doctors, and I have been told that nobody makes them take anything or put a pill in their mouth except the person taking it.  

Now hold on just a minute, because if it wasn't for the doctors just laying script after script out for her, plus bags and boxes of samples, maybe she would still be here today.

Can't some of these types of doctors get…

Joe was from Ireland and since his death, I have not spoken to anybody from his family apart from his ex wife. I feel like I would like to be in Ireland to be at the funeral. I feel like the family did not include me, I was the one there with him, since he moved to the island!! I feel left out. And I was also there with him on the night of death!!

It becomes even more important to me to have a memeorial for him on the island!!

My mom and her 3 sisters at our last family reunion last June.

I have been going to counseling for a couple months now I…

Just wanted everyone on here to know that I am thinking about you all.  

Was doing some research on death rates, based on 1 out of every 113 people in the world that died last year, there is 1.78 deaths per second, 107 deaths per minute, 6,390 deaths per hour, 153,000 deaths per day, 56.0 million deaths per year, 3.9 billion deaths per average lifetime (70 years).

I was amazed, had no idea, every second someone dies?  I always heard this but never verified it!

Just when…

Its the anniversary of steve's death today, but nobody really knew, so wasn't acknowledged by anyone but me, I am tired of grieving alone. Babs