I recently got married to my fiancee of 2 years....about 2 weeks ago or so now...and it was a very lovely wedding, my mother was there which made me very happy, but the whole time I wished my dad was there to see me and give me away. I like to feel like he was. I love you papa. <3

Thank you for the hugs and prayers. I don't know how to message you back. It says you have blocked it.

i had a strange dream abot my dad he woz a super hero i no its a kind of thng kids dream of he com bac to save live but i wud not let go sayng i lost u onse i dont wont to loze u again 

but he saed he woz not gong any wear he woz hear to stay

wen i woke up it felt so real like it realyy hapend it did i no dreams feal real…

Well here it is. Memorial Day. Comes every year the same time The difference is this year my heart is as dark and lonely as the ocean in the middle of a moonless night. The clouds are dark and they remind me of how hard people try to overcome the devastating loss of someone they love more than life itself. It will pass they say. It will get better I have heard a million times. I have said those same words myself a million times. They do get better, but for how long? Just long enough to start…

I lost my husband on April 26th, exactly 1 week later my father passed away.  Today was a very tough day being Memorial Day.  I lost my mother 6 years ago and its still hard on me.  We were very close and i miss her very much.  Now i miss them all everyday.  My husband and I usually did a lot of planting on this long weekend, While my father sat on the deck and watched us. This year it was just me, so I decided to make a memorial garden for them. It felt right to do something like that. .

I'm just realizing how badly my sister's death has affected me. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control and I can't stop myself.

I thought I was being really strong and doing a great job of holding myself together but I couldn't have been more wrong. There has been a perfect storm brewing inside me since I got that phone call and I'm only now seeing it.

I started smoking again (I had quit last April cold turkey and was doing so well), my drinking has increased a lot, I'm…

I dont know how I am going to make it through it.........she was supposed to be there.............all I am doing is crying and wanting her back & missing her so much...........this is just wrong, she wasnt supposed to go before us or her parents........I dont know how I am going on everyday, other than the crying for the last 6 weeks, and looking forward to sleep..... :(

Up all night,now making phone calls way too early.  I live on the west coast of Canada, a sister in Alberta, one in Ontario, one in New Brunswick.  All different time zones so by the time we got the news here it was too late to call any of them last night.  Morning comes 4 hours earlier in New Brunswick than here so I started there and moved westward telling each one after the other that our brother is dying.  2 days maybe more if the antibiotics stop his kidneys shutting down temporarily. …

My wife died last year in May she got so bad in the hospital and would have lived a miserable life after what the hospital did to her that I had the breathing tube removed .For a whole year I was numb to the fact she passed away. In the past few months memories of her dying in the hospital come flooding back,with an increase in weight from eating the wrong food. I find I loved her a lot, but during the marriage it can be described as dysfuctional as well as two people caring for each other.…

it realey anoys me wen i go to funrellss wen peple dont switch off threr cell fones it dose thy cud least switch it off for a bit

i woz at a funrell yday a few plele wear leting thr fones ring thy cud easy turn it off for a bit

i neaded to screame an shout abot it

Mommy! 

Happy Mothers' Day. I miss you so much today. The sadness I am feeling lately has even taken over me physically. I find it difficult to eat, sleep, and socialize. I really just wanna break down and cry today but for some reason I just won't let myself. I don't wanna feel helpless and in pain. So I have been trying to escape my emotions with drinking and smoking. I know you wouldn't be happy about this. You must be very…

dose any 1 else go in to a room adn thnk thy hav saw ther lovd 1s siting it the table in the kitchn reding a paper  or go in to th livin room or sea thm watchng tv

or sea thm warking arond th house tht u get uo to go folor thm coz u thng u r gong krazy…

Before life happens and memory fails,

pieces of you here I'll state.

To you, the beauty that bore me life,

I'll never forget, you'll never fade.

- she calls me precious

- she loves Pizza Hut Stuffed Crust Pizza and made it our staple celebration treat for birthdays, anniversaries etc.

- she adored Barbara Streisand

- she had a crush on Robert Redford

- her best love advice is: Be with a guy that would treat you like a princess…

I am ready to give up. I miss my family and with mother's day tomorrow, it will be hard on my mom for it will be 2 months since her mom, my grandmother passed away. All I want for mother's day is to be with my kids and my mom. I have not seen my mom in 4 years cause I can't afford to go home and if i even talk about my family I get yelled at. I am in a bad relationship, I thought I was ready but know that I am not for I still miss my husband. But this person I am with is very controlling. I…

I have been depressed all through this process since my daughter, Sara, first was in a coma.  Now that she has passed I haven't been feeling much of anything. I am starting to go into a deep depression and wanting to get out.  I feel darkness looming all of the time.  This just started a few day ago.  Her memorial isn't for another week but I feel I shouldn't feel this depressed as I have gone through all of the stages of mourning in the past 4 months since the coma insued. I thought I was…

On May 4th of this year, it was the 30th anniversary of my dad's passing. I lost him when I was a  rebellious, vulnerable individual, lost somewhere between child and adulthood. He'd been sick with a very aggressive form of cancer. He did not tell me. When I look back now, the signs were there, but he did put on a good front. I can't imagine what his wife went through, knowing this, but not letting on to his kids.

I remember going to my apartment and a neighbor saying that the…

It all started back on March  8, 2009, when my husband passed away and I found him. He and our daughter had just gotten in early that morning from a trip to NY to deliver a travel trailer for work. Our daughter and grand-daughter who was only 1 month and 2 days old were still sleeping. My husband, Gene and I were up talking and spending time together before he had to leave later in the evening for another trip out west. We had talked and loved on each other and then he went out to work on…

this wil be the 1st holiday without my son. it will be 2 month on the14 that he passed away. It has already started to hurt. it will also be 30 yrs since my mom died. i'm always  alone on holidays and it just make i  t worse this yr. I feel like im so alone. None of my family has lost a child an they don't understand the pain that i'm going through. it just doesn't go away over night. my other son isdoing the man thing where they try and be  stong and do not want to talk about…

Mom, I have been reading about life and death. I know that we are supposed to be much more that our bodies, that death means to leave the body and cross to that place, where we see our true selves and are able to understand things much more clearly than we could here on Earth.

 So, I know that you are there, somewhere. But I can't reach you. I can't feel you. I don't know if you hear me when I call you. I'm still in this world and I don't understand. At some point I'll join you, and…