Hi Jen Sorry you have had a rough couple of days. Some days are worse than others.  I lost him 3 months ago and some days I am ok then others I am not.  Everything I do I keep thinking 'Oh I have to tell him this', then I remember I cant.  I talk to him all the time and just hope that maybe he can hear me.  His death was so sudden and unexpected and I still cant get my head around the fact that I will never see him again.  I know that he would want me to get on with life but right now everything seems so pointless without his love and support.   I hope you have a better day today xx