My mom died 4 months ago
My mom had pulmonary fibrosis. She was sick for a few years. It was funny how when my grandmother smoked, my mom would always say-I’m gonna die from second hand smoke. My mom never smoked. She died from lung disease. Ironic.I was fine at the funeral. Planning. Talking to everyone. I thought u handled it great. Now 4 months later, I’m a mess. Some days I’m perfectly fine, but others I can’t walk down the street without crying. I keep thinking that I haven’t talked to her in a while & I…See More
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Erin, thanks for accepting my friend request! While I would not wish the loss of a spouse on my worst enemy, it does help to know that there are others who face the same daily struggles with loss as I.
I recently joined a local meetup group of folk who, like me, recently lost their spouses - I figure it is better to be around others rather than continuing to isolate myself, and I assume that these folks would understand what I am going through. My first meeting with them is this coming Tuesday, so I hope to come back to the page to share how it went.
Since you are also in the Southern California area, I can privately send you the info on the meetup group if that is something that you think might be beneficial to you.
Take care,
-Steve Suehiro
Erin, thank you so much for befriending me and sharing with me. I am reading everything that I pretty much feel when I read your words. I am so very very sorry about Sean. I totally get how July 4th is going to be because I just went through the same yesterday with July 1st Canada Day. That was one of Wil's favourite days as he was a true historian and proud to live here. I put on his favourite Canada tshirt. I hung a couple of his flags. And I sat outside in the dark with no one around me and listened to the fireworks and lost it. I couldn't wait for them to stop. I could talk to you endlessly about the emotions and ways the days and nights go. It will be 3 months next Monday. I too do not want to live this life. Yes it is your life now. Yes filled with sorrow and torment. You hit the nail on the head. I keep hoping I'll just die from a broken heart. There is nothing now in my world. Yes I have one daughter 20 years of age. She lives on her own and leads a happy life. I live my own life. She can not understand why I am the way I am so she stays out of it. Today I am going to shower and go pay rent. Then probably sleep and cry, sleep and cry. This won't get easier for us I am sure of that.