Hi Lisa. I feel bad from the thought that Rocky won't stick around after he's gone.  I keep telling him all the time now to please come check on me a lot. I wish there were a way we could know they were not far away after they die, a way they could check on us and we would know it. That seems much fairer than how it really is when they are gone. Must be a reason. Maybe so that we move on. But like you, I don't think I will move on. I'm not young enough to move on. When I was younger, like 20 years ago, I divorced and that felt like a death, it was so painful. But because I had my kids and I was young enough I felt like I might just find love again. Not anymore. I'm too tired and this is so much worse.