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Permalink Reply by mercy on January 30, 2012 at 1:42pm

Hey K.T; am sorry you are feeling this way. Grief expresses itself in so many different ways. I don’t feel insecure; I mostly feel like am driving a wedge between myself and everyone since I’m always so sad and withdrawn. I can deal with the loneliness this creates; the only thing I can’t deal with is my daughter avoiding my company since am so sad all the time. I can usually put on a face but even though she’s two, she can see right through me. I feel like I burden people with my pain, so instead of putting the burden on them, I avoid them all together but I can’t avoid my daughter. I don’t know if am making sense but as you can see, grief can turn us into someone we don’t even recognize, you are not alone.

Permalink Reply by Nicole on January 31, 2012 at 3:31am

I completely can relate to this.  I also feel like my sadness will drive people away.  I also think that when people don't reply immediately to my messages they don't want to talk to me, when actually they are just busy and eventually do reply.  I am so scared of losing more people in my life who mean something to me, through me being so moody.  I try to put on a happy face but sometimes I just cannot.  I feel insecure and alone at times.  But it is just us that feel that way, the people who really love and care for us understand this.  I have been for counselling and I discussed this topic with my counsellor.  I don't want to be a burden on anyone.  I have been visiting my aunt alot lately.  She is my mom's only sister, and reminds me alot of my mom.  I like being around her because she is a "part" of my mom.  I like talking to her and I have stayed over at her house a few times.  I like being in a house with a family but I am very cautious not to make a nuisance of myself.  She is not my mother although I think of her like one.