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Permalink Reply by anna l. on August 8, 2011 at 3:19pm

I dont think you are going mad.  I get stomach pains so bad if I dont get up and out the door for a walk or bike ride it will make me vomit.  It seems to be a form of panic attach, which I am not prone to so I didnt know what it was at first.  Physical activity outside is the only thing that works for me.  I have always been a lover of long fast walks and long hard bike riding so that is a natural for me but I feel pretty silly, not to mention vulnerable and lonely out speed walking up and down my street at 3am, in my sleep cloths.  I hope you find something that works for you to get what you are experiencing under control.  safe gentle hugs of understanding coming your way.

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Permalink Reply by Steve Howard on August 9, 2011 at 6:02am

Oh my yes.

 

In fact, since my wife died I have been pretty convinced that I am next.  I go from being absolutely sure I have throat cancer every time I get a sore throat to being sure that every cut will result in a massive infection that will go systemic.  Or I'll develop tetanus and die from that.

 

In 2001, following my father's death, I became very symptomatic of PTSD.  In fact, the PTSD got so bad that I actually lost a job because of it.  Why?  Because I kept passing out.  The flashbacks were so horrible that my brain would just shut off.  There are times when I would wake up from these episodes and I would be paralyzed for a few minutes.  Totally unable to move.  These episodes continue even to this day, although they are far less frequent.  Now, granted, my wife's death threw some salt in the wound.  But the wound was still wide open from my father's death.

 

No, you are not mad.  But, I would see if you can get into see someone to help you with this stuff.  A care from a licensed therapist and/or doctor can do wonders to manage your anxiety.  Whatever you do, don't ignore it.  Burying that stuff is not the answer.  That's what I did and why I still suffer from those symptoms even over 10 years after the fact.

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Permalink Reply by Babs on August 9, 2011 at 4:47pm

Thank you for your replies, sorry to hear of your physical symptoms, they are really not nice, but it is good to know I'm not alone. Sometimes my whole body gets contorted and I am thrown off my chair or bed, it is usually accompanied by extreme fear, Have been to doctor's, he thought it was maybe some post traumatic stress thing and gave me some meds which do help. my thoughts are with you all. Babs

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