I don't know what to do anymore . But cry in . In may 
Of 2007 lost my daddy. Man that was hard .
Thought
I was gonna loose it . I was standing by his side when 
He took his last breath. But I made it with lots of 
Tears.then in June of 2009 my only brother  was found
With a bullet in his head in his house. Which was across
The street from my moms. He meant the world to 
Me and my son. My son would go work for him
In fla  crabbing in the summer. Then I had to get my 
My mom in nov. And bring her to live with me. I lost
Her dec 2009. I then felt my world had ended. . 
My whole family was gone . My stregth was my oldest 
Son he stood by me thru everything. When I would
Go thru depressions he would make me leave house
He would do anything to make me laugh. Then the
Final straw came feb 14th I lost him in a car wreck
And now all I do is cry. I don't want to get up
Get dressed eat nothing.I just want it to go awa
It has to be a dream.my son wouldn't leave me . 
I hate the paramedics I hate the Hospitol I hate them 
All. They could have saved him. But they didn't . 
They waited to long to fly him out. I sit here all day
Reading on his injury and am learning alot. What 
They are doing is wrong . They took my baby from me
And my whole world has crumbled . This ain't life
This is death but I'm still breathing is only difference