Betty, I feel your pain. And please keep being here, one day at a time. It is extremely gut wrenching, and cry out loud if you need to.....I have the same loss as you..... still very distraught. I continue speaking to him daily in my prayers. If you could, let's find some friends and form a group here for comfort and support. May God take care of you every day. Last Breaths P.S.I am also into health etc.... but now, it has become very hard - to do it by myself.