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Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 8:01pm

I understand, I only just lost my husband to suicide 2 months ago and I don’t understand how it will ever feel better again

Permalink Reply by Faith on June 3, 2019 at 8:12pm

Alice I still feel this way after 9 years. I mean over time it does get easier however that pain never goes away. I am so sorry for your loss. One thing I will tell you do not blame yourself. I spent years blaming myself and it just doesn’t help I no that is easier said then done but like others tell me it was not my fault and it isn’t yours. My heart goes out to you and if you ever need someone I am here

Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 11:34pm

I sent him away that night

Permalink Reply by Faith on June 3, 2019 at 11:41pm

Still though you did not make him do what he did just like I didn’t make my dad so what he did. But I still blame my self about my dad as well like what I could of done different yet I had no idea he was going to do what he did

Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 11:43pm

I always thought just never really thought he would 

Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 11:43pm

It’s just so messed up

Permalink Reply by Faith on June 3, 2019 at 11:46pm

You no my dad tried 4 times before he actually succeeded so I never really thought he would do it either not successful yet all the other times he attempted he showed it and I was able to get him help. This last time he didn’t e en show he was depressed. The night before we where planning on what we where doing the following weekend no hint of depression that time so I was shocked

Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 11:50pm

Don’t they know what they leave behind,it’s awlful, I have to make sure my kids are ok, I have to be strong, it just really sucks

Permalink Reply by Faith on June 3, 2019 at 11:54pm

I was going to ask how your kids are doing. I know I was not a kid when I lost him I was in my early 20’s but it traumatized me. Especially finding him and no matter how old I was or am now it’s like I feel orphaned. I lost my mom when I was a kid (10) so I have no parents or even grandparents now. I just keep thinking why dad why did you leave me alone like you did and then I still cry about it. Your a good mom to make sure your kids are ok I wish I still had my mom to do that with

Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 11:58pm

I just don know how to stay strong for them, I have to learn things I’ve never have before....it’s very overwhelming 

Permalink Reply by Alice B on June 3, 2019 at 11:58pm

They all are in counseling now

Permalink Reply by Faith on June 4, 2019 at 12:00am

Counseling is a good thing I have been in it since I was 10 when I had my first loss when I lost my mom. Not ashamed to admit I am now in my 30s and still in it to cope

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