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Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on August 31, 2017 at 3:12pm

Permalink Reply by Trina Mamoon on September 4, 2017 at 2:41am

Dear Linda,

Beautiful photo of you and your beloved husband. The two of you look so happy together and content! I totally relate to your missing your husband, especially during the holidays, and this Labor Day will be your fifth that he has been gone. Everyday we miss them, our precious spouses, but on holidays it's especially bad. Everyone else has plans to celebrate, they are getting excited, looking forward to the fun-filled day, but us, it's just the opposite for bereaved spouses like us. It's hard to even get out of bed on holidays. This is our life now. Like you say, one day is the same as the next. Please know that I am thinking of you and sending prayers for peace.

Love and hugs, Trina

Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on September 4, 2017 at 6:31am

Hi Trina,

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me. Like you mentioned this is our new life.

God Bless You, Trina

Permalink Reply by Maxey on September 7, 2017 at 8:58pm

Linda, I agree that each day blends into the next. I wake up and, for a moment, I ask myself, is this real? Can I please be dreaming. Can I please turn back the clock a few years and be in my old life where I was so happy and content with my husband. Then, the realization sets in, and I find myself drifting into a depressed state. I have to get up and shake myself, and tell myself to find something to do to distract me from my feelings.
Then the day begins, just like the one before. I ask myself, and God, how long does this pain have to last? I, like you, am just biding me time waiting to join my love. Hopefully, God will allow this - that will be finally our paradise!
Peace!

Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on September 8, 2017 at 9:45am

Hi Maxey,

Maybe my waiting might finally end. I live in Florida and not leaving because of the Hurricane.

Permalink Reply by morgan on September 8, 2017 at 1:06pm

Linda,  I hate to say this but I can only hope for you that you go peacefully if it does take you.  Having lived through Wilma, Jeanne and Frances in West Palm Beach and knowing the strength of what a Cat 3 was like I know a Cat 4 will be exponentially stronger and depending on your exact location you are going to get a dose of the fierceness that can result from a large system like this.  If I am not mistaken I think you said Hallandale at one point.  In any location I think the storm surge is going to be the determinant of life and limb.  

I have four of my five best friends who still live there.  One evacuated, one cannot because she is caretaking two family members with medically compromised situations and another has decided to go inland to get away from the water.  The fourth is out of the state at the moment. I have been assisting from here with setting up text alerts for their phones and trying to find labor to put up wood for my caretaking friend but otherwise I can't do much.  Looking for an ax at the moment in case my friend ends up in a flooded attic.

I sold our home in WPB in 2013 eight months after my husband died but I think like you if I was still there I am not sure I wouldn't just stay and see what happened.  I cant say I would be courageous, I don't know how I would feel as it might be happening but like you I want an out and I guess if this is it, it might be an opportunity for those of us who just don't need more time of this other anguish we live through every day.  

I would say like I am to my friends who want to live "be safe" but for you I will say "may you receive whatever blessings you desire".  

morgan

Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on September 9, 2017 at 7:33am

Hi Morgan,

I live in Elkton, Fl, the last Hurricane, we were lucky just some lost of siding and a lot of trees down, I have a middle bathroom all set in case of strong winds, I do have a 12 year old  shih tsz  to keep me company, if it is God's will to take me so be it. I am not afraid to die, if it means joining Julian again. Thanks for your thoughts.

Linda