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Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on June 15, 2017 at 3:58pm

it will evry day i hell

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Permalink Reply by Jackie cooke on June 16, 2017 at 2:58am

I had a dream last night about Shirl, I knew in the dream that I only had a day with her and then she would die. I was holding her and we were both sobbing then I must have woke up. Richard it feels like she died again last night, I'm sobbing as it hurts so much. It's the first time I have dreamt of her. I think every day will be like the first day without her x

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Permalink Reply by Nora on June 16, 2017 at 6:59pm

Every day is like

I don't know what to do. I only know that I should find a job but I forget about it on my way to the desk, do something like a robot, pet my dogs - useless, aimless existence...

Absolutely everything that belongs to normal everyday function hurts. I want to be alone and I hate being alone, I want to see people and I am afraid of seeing people. I cannot make myself to go check my mailbox. I am afraid of everything that is coming from the outside world.

All my online friends and my daughter tell me - 3 months already you should do this and you should do that.... I only feel guilty as actually I just don't want to be here at all - why they don't understand?

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