Hi everyone, as this is a topic which is quite close to me, I thought I'd take the advice and join an online forum.

Well, I'm 30 now, and my dad suddenly passed away when I was 9. it did hit me then, but due to my age, I didn't really understand what had happened, and its implications.

I remember the day exactly how it happened, I also saw him in the morgue, at that age, which, looking back was a bad idea. I do feel it has really caught up with me, as Its on my mind day and night, and makes me sick. I was wondering whether anyone else has experienced anything like this, and what they do to help themselves get through? I appreciate any comments, suggestions. I feel like it interferes with relationships, and my whole outlook on life. I've tried being positive, being thankful for everything I have, but it still comes in the way, and does really affect me. 

Thanks, 

M