Where are you Christmas??

This is my third Christmas without my beloved husband, Julian. I will spend it alone with my little shih tzu, Babie J. I have been invited to neighbors houses for Christmas, but I just can't bear to watch everyone else happy and my heart is breaking. I can't wait for the Holiday Season to be over, wish I could just sleep through it. God Bless All would are suffering like me. Christmas will never be the same again, ever. 

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Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on December 24, 2015 at 2:01pm

THANK YOU PEGGY YOU HAVE A PEACEFUL DAY ALSO.

Permalink Reply by Lisa James on December 25, 2015 at 3:36pm

This is the first Christmas without my husband,he passed away 9 monthes ago.It has been with my kids.It was not the same for me.My kids gave me a nice Christmas present,they made a memory book of my husband and I together and I loved it.Found pictures of us together and I wonder why I found a couple empty Busch beer cans.They cut them apart and put them in the memory book,knew we both loved Busch beer and I still do.Seen 4 Busch beer bottle caps,one on each corner glued on the cover.I understand your pain

Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on December 26, 2015 at 5:21am

Thanks Anne, I rescued her two years ago and she is the love of my life. I swear she can tell when I am down, shed cuddles real close to me. 

Permalink Reply by HollowHeart on December 26, 2015 at 11:28pm
Hi Linda. How was your Christmas? Mine was awful. I want to wipe Christmas out of my life. I'm glad you had your doggie. I believe my cat knows when I'm sad. When I was crying she'd come over every time and cuddle or rub me or just sit close. It made me feel good she was trying to make me feel better in her own way. I felt like she knew I was sad.
Permalink Reply by Linda Engberg on December 27, 2015 at 4:18am

Hi HollowHearth,

I survived through Christmas thanks to my Babie J and a wonderful neighbor who brought me a plate on Christmas Day. It's nice to know there are some people who care. I wanted to go to Church, but I just can't go anymore at all. I still have my faith but can't bear to see all the couples together holding hands. I just keep praying to God to help me make it day to day.    

Permalink Reply by HollowHeart on December 30, 2015 at 12:38pm

Linda, I find myself eliminating a lot of places out of my life because I can't stand to go alone. Shopping was one of my favorite things to do, but my sister was a big shopper, bigger than me, but I enjoyed it very much WITH her. So I get what you are saying about seeing couples together. Seeing anyone happy together gets to me now, as I'm alone. It's like a neon sign pointing to them, something I wouldn't have paid attention to before. Seeing happy families together is very much on my radar now.

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