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Permalink Reply by Kia on June 18, 2015 at 7:31am

Hi Erin I'm Kia I feel the same way my wife died on June 5 th and it's like it's not real she was and still is everything to me. She died in her sleep I just keep wishing I had one more day , i just want to kiss her one more time . I know the pain is constant but we have to find a way to live with it and I don't know how to do that maybe as the days go by we ll figure it out. I ll pray that God gives us all strength.

Permalink Reply by Erin on June 18, 2015 at 7:49pm

Hi Kia
I wish for 1 more, 5 more minutes any time I could have with him. I can't sleep without him and all I want to do is sleep so at least I can have him in my dreams. I wake up in the morning and cry. This house is dead. He was always in a good mood in the morning and brought happiness to everyone here. Everyone loved him. He had that aurora about him. Everyone he knew had a story to tell about how he helped them. He is really missed by everyone he knew. I don't think this pain will ever get better. I can't see myself being with anyone else. I just want him. Just 1 more time I want to put my arms around him, one more time to lay my head on his chest. We never went anywhere without a kiss goodbye except this time. My heart is so shattered in so many pieces I don't think I can put it back together. He was the rest of my life man. What am I supposed to do now?
Thanks for listening to my tears. It does help to put these feelings out. My mind is so jumbled with all this hurt and this helps to kinda put it in some kind of order.

Permalink Reply by Steve Suehiro on June 30, 2015 at 5:20pm

Sorry to hear that you experienced this too Kia.   I lost my wife unexpectedly August 8, 2014.  It's been a difficult time since then and even now a little short of 11 months after she died I still struggle with intense feelings of loneliness and sorrow.  I expect that I will forever.