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Permalink Reply by Mel Joyce on August 17, 2010 at 3:49am

Hello Christine, i just wanted to let you know how sorry i am for your loss. It doesn't matter how old your dad is when you lose him, it still hurts. We think that our dads are invincible and will always be there then when they are gone, it's debilitating. I am also sure that it's harder because you can't really grieve and it's all bottled up. I know that is not good. It can be unhealthy, i pray that you can figure out an outlet for yourself. My suggestion would be a support group of some kind, at least that would give you a setting or environment where you could share your feelings and it's away from your mom so she is not directly affected by your thoughts and emotions. I can understand her fragile state is your primary reason for not letting yourself go, not to mention being bipolar. That is a lot on your plate. My recommendation is to try many outlets, support groups, exercise, listening to music, different medication, reading, anything that you can funnel out or get a better understanding, or just letting yourself purge all the emotional baggage you have been carrying around. Let your mind, body and soul flush out and let your wounds begin a refreshing and healing. I pray that you find what works for you. My thoughts & prayers to you, Love & God Bless you, mel.

Permalink Reply by Christine A. Tompkins on August 17, 2010 at 6:37am

Thank you Mel for responding to my entry. You are right about why it is so hard with my mother. I do take my medicines like i am suppose to, I just started thearpy again, and decided to give this a try. I'm hoping either the thearpy or this will work or both. I'm not one for going to a group of people in person. I try to listen to music just as long as it's not something that makes me think of him. I don't like to read but if I knew of a good book that could possible help me I would read it . I have'nt read your story yet this Is all new to me but I am sorry for you also. Thank you again Christine