Ever have a bad day?

Wow..where do I start?  I am having a terrible day.  Started out early today feeling really bad.  It's one thing to say you miss someone....but what I am feeling is SO much stronger then that.  To say "I'm missing my wife so bad" don't even get close to how I feel.  Today everything is bothering me...I noticed one of my wife's flowers in the back yard came up and I cried like a baby.  I've "talked" to my wife a great deal today....told her how much I love and miss her....told her how bad I want her back....told her that life just ain't worth living without her.  I wonder when and if this damn pain is ever going to ease up.  Sometimes when I am chatting on here I can focus more on the other person's feelings and forget mine for awhile but they come back as soon as I turn this computer off.  It's so hard.....so so hard.  I have cried like a little girl a lot today.  It's been a bad day.  I really don't know how many more I cant take like this one.  I am starting to dislike coming home.  At first it was comforting to be here, this is where my wife's last breath was taken (wow - this is bad) but now it is full of so many memories that should be good but all they do is make me break down over and over again.  I want to say very cruel things to GOD right now.....but my wife loved him so I have to respect him. I will keep my feeling's about the big guy to myself.  I miss my love, my angel....my darling wife.

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Permalink Reply by Terri Shedd Ramsour on August 18, 2013 at 2:23pm
I lost my husband to cancer in 2012 and the pain is undescribable. I get upset when I see an old couple together because we never will have that. I feel your pain and am so sorry for your loss. I am crying now. It comes in waves. I take small steps and am proud when I can. Heard our song on the radio the other day and didn't cry. Never thought that would happen but it did. It all still seems surreal to me. Like it was a bad dream.
Permalink Reply by Mel on August 23, 2013 at 12:32am
I'm sorry for your loss and your pain! I know people will say time will heal your pain, I don't agree, but I do believe time will ease your pain and it will get better! There are so many ups and downs that you have to go through and it doesn't seem fair! I lost my husband whom I thought was the love of my life and I thought I could never find happiness and love that I had with him, nor did I want to find it! but I am happily remarried now and love my new husband. I love him differently than my late husband but just as much. So to me my late husband was the first love of my life who blessed me with 13 beautiful years together and 3 beautiful children. And my new husband is the 2nd love of my life here to bless me the rest of my life. I hope you find comfort and peace with all the love you had together and always keep am open mind and open heart to new possibilities.

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