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Permalink Reply by Ruby Smith on January 5, 2010 at 10:23pm

Susan, please know my thoughts are with you....I know that tomorrow will bring back a flood of emotions but it is good that you will be with your family and perhaps you can share the wonderful memories of your dad together!!!

Permalink Reply by Debbie Varga on January 8, 2010 at 12:00pm

I am so sorry for your loss. I am dreading the first anniversary. Does the pain in our hearts ever go away completely. I am thinking not. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Permalink Reply by susan denner on January 8, 2010 at 2:44pm

Thank you for your post. I kept myself busy that day and that night my immediate family (husband, child,mom, brother and sister-in-law) went out to dinner and we all shared FUNNY stories about my dad. We were all actually laughing at the stories. It was bittersweet. After dinner we had my daughter (who is nine) let go of a dozen balloons in my dads favorite color. It was beautiful. I wish I could tell you it gets better, but the only thing that has gotten better is the the heaviness I felt in my chest for about a month afterwards - cant really explain - but I really do take it just one day at a time as thinking about the future and how my dad will not be physically a part of it crushes me still. Hang in there, and just try to get through every day.......my thoughts are with you.