Malcolm I know how you feel. My wife and mother both died with in the last 2 years. Taking my world with them. So many people have children, other family. I really don't have anybody that cares. I am struggling also. Trying to make since of what has happened to me. I have terrible memories of both of them during the last few months they lived. My wife died of cancer. My mom about a year and half later with COPD. Both were a very hard thing to watch. I feel I really have nothing left to live for. I do have faith in God. I have the hope that I can one day be together with my family again. So harming myself is not a option. I go through each day the best I can. Pray for God to show me a way.