I don't know what to do anymore, so I'm going to write.

Every day feels worse and more lonely than the day before, since I lost my husband and best friend. I never knew life could go from being so beautiful and wonderful one day to being an ugly, awful burden the next day. In November and December, I never thought life could be so sweet. My husband and I had just moved on to the next phase of our life. We had bought a house only months before. We were finally finished moving in…