I keep hearing that song phrase over and over in my head, "you are everything, and everything is you." That is exactly how I feel about my beloved husband who left this earth just over a year ago.
I wish I could put into words the total feeling of loss and longing that I feel. My family is planning a trip and including me this Christmas. I will go along and pretend to have a good time; I will smile and chat,but, all the while, the real me is in a faraway place searching for memories of my husband and his love.
The loss of love seems to be the thing I miss most; I miss my husband telling me daily that he loved me, I miss his touch, his smile, he EVERYTHING!
I try to remember what it felt like to be happy, contented and fulfilled. It seems like ages ago; I would give anything to have that feeling again, but it will never again be with me until I join my beloved again.
This ache and pain is all I have left; I feel such despair knowing that this is my future. It gets more difficult to get through each day; I pray for God's mercy and to be released from this life of agony.