It has been a while since I've posted in here my dad is still alive my birthday (May.30) was rough emotionally I drink to cope but end up crying. Since 2001 on and off I've taken care my dad with all his sicknesses I've done it alone too and as I write this I question why Life has to be so painful? My dad doesn't talk, hardly eats I know he is ready to die I see his sadness, I find myself mad at my siblings and everyone around me for not asking "how I am doing or do I need any help
" I feel guilty for being mad at my dad for leaving me here.