Yesterday afternoon, my dad passed away on his birthday. I am just going through the motions and hope someone can guide me? Today has just been a blur of feeling nothing just here I remember it all I gave my dad some morphine he took a breath and died since 2001 I've been by his side on & off and it's…

It has been a while since I've posted in here my dad is still alive my birthday (May.30) was rough emotionally I drink to cope but end up crying. Since 2001 on and off I've taken care my dad with all his sicknesses I've done it alone too and as I write this I question why Life has to be so painful? My dad doesn't talk, hardly eats I know he is ready to die I see his sadness, I find myself mad at my…