Well, it's been 5 years and 4 months since my mother transitioned. I typically have a rough time in March because that was her birth month and my sister and I would spend months planning for her birthday. My mother had a very bad earthly life and we wanted so much to make her later years special.

I guess I spend far too many hours thinking of all the wrong things I did to my mother and not nearly enough time thinking about the good times. I wish my brain would remember more of the good and less of the bad. I wish my mother would visit me more in my dreams. I don't know if that requires too much energy on her part or not. But, I wish.

Today was a bad day. Yes, even after all of that times, today was a bad day. For once, I didn't suffer alone, I found this website and I am grateful to have a place where I can express my pain. Thank you.