How could death come in between us and separate us. Maybe, maybe, in my wildest thoughts, maybe a Divorce? but, you would be here for your son 100%. However, things did not turned out that way. I lost you to Murder!. We spent almost 12 years together, so much memories to treasure; I got 12 years;. but our son Sebastian only got 19 months. How is that fair??? 12 years vs. 19 months. This is just not right, this is not what my life was suppose to be.

Never did I imagine, being a young Widow at the age of 27; that cant be right?, it cant, its not real? is it? How could this be happening?. Please, I ask, that this is just a bad dream, please someone wake me up?.