the pain will never go away

all the stores are getting ready for x mas, god how I hate it. I just don't go out any more. I hate seeing people so happy, I just want to scream. I can feel my tears start falling when im out.  most of the time I just stay im my room, crying wishing I was with my shawn. missing my son so bad. dear god don't make me go through another x mas please.  I just want to be with him, im so ready to go. I feel no one can help me, no one cares my family wont talk to me, my friends are gone, my  son  is the love of my life and I need him.  I pray to die, I don't want to go on, im to tired, to much pain.

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Comment by kim on November 12, 2015 at 9:56am

thank you  so much for understanding, and your kind words,  hugs  kim

Comment by bluebird on November 11, 2015 at 8:22pm

I understand that, kim.  I hate seeing happy couples, happy families. I prefer to just stay home as much as I can.  I'm so sorry.

Comment by Jesse's Mom on November 11, 2015 at 7:48pm

Sending you gentle thoughts tonight.

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