im sorry I have not been on for a long time, for those that are new im truly sorry for your loss, to my friends that I have made in here I still feel your pain. I have not been doing to  good health wise, but I really don't care any more, I still pray every night to be with my son shawn. I cry morning noon and night, I feel my pain will never end, the emptiness, the darkness is so unbearable.to feel as lonely as I do is no way to live. I hope with all my heart you are all doing a little better. please know im thinking of you all every day.  thank you for being more of a  family to me than my own family. hugs   kim