The Night Before my Mother passed away i had talked to her and she did not sound good t o do with her breathing and weakness so we talked and i called her back more like 15 mins to check on her, she said can you come over tommorrow and stay with me she was scared to death that there was somthing worng. yes Mom i can do that so she said Ok.. i am going to lay down and I love you she said to me. Ill never forget it thats for sure means alot to me when she said that to me.. i replyed back to her with I love you too. i call you in the morning i told her. Nov 2nd at 9 am i called her and she answered the phone and she said that she was not feeling good so i told her to call 911 she refuse too. I never could know why she done that for.. so i got off and made some calls for my self and the neighbor come over and helped her and she was weak she couldnt get out of bed, so i called her back again and the neighbor answered the phone and told me that the fire dept was here to take her to the hopsital and at that time i was thankful for that. she got to the e.r she was talking and in lots of pain so i talked to the nurse and she told me that they were going to keep her on the 9th floor so i was released until she got in the room she was at and they replyed to me that she is compling about chest pains so they moved her to ICU and the doctors called and said we need to be there Now to be with her as it was she was in coma aready and breathing tub to make her breath so rest of the family come and meet withthe doctors and she was not going to make it thou the night they said. so my sister and i were going to stay by her side that night and as it was that we all were in the room with her and she did not know that we were there.. she looked so helpless and hopeless i held her hand and told her that i was there and i loved her as we gathered around her the pastor was in there too and we all prayed for her to give her last rights because we know she was not going to make it no more and as i walked and talked to rest of the family and watched her heart drop to 0 that was the biggest scarey thing to see and to watch her heart drop to nuthing until the nurse come to me and told me she was gone and i lost it for sure right along with everyone else so i went and hugged my sister and told her she was gone and made some calls and things and called my step brother Don to come back because she was gone he come back as fast he can be there and he was . my son did not getto see her until 10 mins later she was gone his heart was broken even more . and my daughter who lives in stillwater ok. she called me and said Mommie are you ok, i told her yes and we cryed and she said that this is not fair that she was going to be here for christmas and meet her frist great grandson jacob so she said mommie can you tell grandma that jacob and i love her and hug her and kiss her for me as she stayed on the phone that was the hardest thing to do for your kids but i done it for her and the baby.. on the 7th we had her services for her and it really didnt hit home to me until i relized all her stuff in my living room in boxs and then it hit me .. but i was so busy to take care of things and get things done before my uncle had to go home to the point i was drained out and wore out to the point i was taken to the hospital for chest pains after all of this was done with .
i dont think i will never get over the death of my mom because she was mine mom and one and only one i had in my life all of these years. but now i know that she is in a happy place and not suffering no more . and smiling down on me and the grandchildrens . the hardest thing right now for me is the christmas hoilday because she was going to be here and help cook dinner . and now i am on my own for this dinner and i hope she knows i am going to my best to make it like hers she use to do for dinners . for the big family we have ,, she will be missed and we love you Mom..
your loving Daughter sharon