I heard something today and the first thing I thought of/tried to do was turn to Lisa and say "Can you believe blah blah blah. Doesn't that sound really good?" And then reality hit me upside the head. Lisa wasn't there. She hadn't just gone to the bathroom to return imminently. She was not present in body and was not destined to return. My heart hurt and I felt like I just fell in a long big dark deep well. I'm ok. I'm just sad. Tomorrow is another day. Thankfully I live in Phoenix so it's most likely will be sunny and that makes it easier to try to be happy.