My mind still protects me from the intense grief, but it is unable to prevent the loneliness that is slowly seeping into my life. When I go to bed Nanette is not there, but I remain in the same spot as before. When I wake up during the night I find myself reaching over to see if she is there...

Still no hint as to what caused her death. But the memories of trying to save her still haunt my every waking moment. I just knew the EMT's could save her, I had no doubt, but they couldn't. Why is she gone?