That is all I can do. It's been 1 month and 1 day since I lost my sweet beautiful daughter. I don't know who I am without her. I don't know how I've made it this far. I want to disappear. I wish I could fast forward my life. I miss her so much. I think of her constantly.. At work.. At home.. In my car.. She is with me everywhere I go and in everything I see.. Of course at work everyone is expecting me to be strong and keep myself pulled together.. So I do the best I can and literally fall to pieces all the way home.. All through the night.. I grieve when it's convenient for others and this makes me resent people at work.. They don't know what I'm feeling if they did they would understand there's not a switch to turn this hurt off and on. I wish I could run away.. Just be by myself somewhere.. Maybe cry and scream for days.. Nothing will bring her back though.. And nothing can take me to her like right now.. So heartbroken and hollow Im just here going through the motions of life but not truly living it.. I lost all my heart and soul April 2nd when I lost Trinity Marie.