Time passes so slowly without you, still yesterday is a blur, a distant thought lost in everything that is out of my control. I cannot live in the past, I cannot accept the present, and the future is so dim without your precious light. I try desperately to feel anything past the hurt, but there is no margin between complete destruction and a vacant heart. Though continuous, at times I feel its strength over me build, as the trembling begins from the center of my soul demanding to surface. I have no strength, like a fallen leaf in a raging flood I have no grip, I am just here while everything internal and external threatens to submerge me. What is this world anymore but a temporary prison between the agony of losing you and the joy of holding you again. In my thoughts, in my words, in my actions daily I cry out to God, I cry out for you. Though I am so small amongst all creations that is in Heaven and below my grief is immeasurable, my existence without you is so unbelievably painful. Saying I miss you seems so insignificant of how I really feel and no amount of words can express how deeply you are loved. I search the sky for your light, I close my eyes and imagine you here, then I imagine you in Heaven and thank God for his love and the promise that I will in his time be with you again.