ON MY SITE TAKING ABOUT THE DATE ON MOMS DEATH WAS INCORRECT, SHE DIED 3 MONTHS AGO 2010 I WROTE 2001,WOW I HOPE IM NOT IN THIS SHAPE 10 YEARS FROM NOW! U MUST THINK IM CRAZY TALKING TO COMPLETE STRANGERS,BUT MY SISTERS ARE JUST AS MESSED UP MENTALLY AS I AM.I GET SO MAD WHEN MY HUBBY TELLS ME I NEED TO GET ON WITH MY LIFE,LIKE A RELLY ENJOY LIVING IN ALL THIS PAIN AND TORMENT.FOR SOME UNKNON REASON TO ME,I CANT SEEM TO FUNCTION ON A NORMAL BASIC. I WANT MY MOOMY BACK! I USE TO ENJOY A LITTLE NAP IN THE AFTERNOON,BUT WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES ,I SEE MOM SITTING IN HER HOSPITAL BED AT HOSPICE,SMILING AT ME,ITS LIKE SHE WANTS TO SAY SOMETHING TO ME,EVEYTHING IN MY LIFRE REVOLED AROUND MY MOM,ESPECCILLAY THE HOLIDAYS,OH GOD HOW AM I GONIN GET THROGH WITHOUT HER.SOMETHING IN MY HEART BELIEVES SOMETHING WAS LEFT UNSAID OR UNDONE WITH MOM,I NO THIS SOUNDS CRAZY...BUT I HEAR HER CALLING FOR ME.BUT I CANT FIND HER,SHES GONE!