today was the first time since my wife passed that I really felt her being gone .Of course it has been such a short time since since her untimely departure I still feel her presence. I hate those flashbacks.I just happend to be looking at some old video. clips of the grandkids and heard her voice in the background.Saw her go in the kitchen a view of her back.I turned off the video Iam 65 I cann,t see making it to 70 whats the use.I mean you just don,t loose somebody and automatically start over whats the point.Its like living in a void