and how it's altered my life in one fell swoop, changing everything

taking everything I ever knew and trusted and shattering it to the cement

all of my reason and understanding scattered under the immovable parts of reality

I once believed and even knew each day I'd waken to all of my children

laughing, speaking, yelling, screaming, crying, hoping, dreaming

at one time I felt powerful and secure in the knowledge of your life

now I wake to your urn on my table and tears on my cheeks as I move by

Gone are the wild and innocent days of your life, taking with them my solace

as I am left with every fiber of my being shaking with a change I don't want

there are no words to qualify my loss of you even though the dictionary bursts

this isn't how it should be therefore how can an explanation for my feelings exist

No words to soothe the savage ache which beats within my breast

or words to amplify the pain behind a fleeting smile brought on by a memory

if I had one wish I would want you here whole and dancing along with the sun

but what good does that wish do, when every morning you're still gone